Wholehearted

Lukewarm is really the worst temperature, isn't it? Hot tea, awesome; iced tea; also awesome; but lukewarm tea, you've got to be kidding.

In Revelations 3, God says, "I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm — neither hot nor cold — I am about to spit you out of my mouth (vs. 15-16).

Unfortunately, lukewarm is exactly what you're getting from me in this post. I don't have anything revolutionary to say, nor anything painfully random. I just couldn't keep from typing a bit to clear my head.

It must be the wedding planning I get to be part of. It makes me think a lot about what it means to commit to something. Commitment can be described various ways, but all involve choice and wholeheartedness. You cannot commit to something halfheartedly, that's just called settling. You also can't commit without choice, since commitment without choice is just force. There's nothing special in force; there's nothing rewarding in settling. The reward is in the risk, and in the choice.

I've been thinking about what is it out there that deserves my commitment. It's a little different than thinking about my priorities. In commitment thinking, I have to examine each of my priorities and ask myself, 1) did I choose this and 2) how much have I invested in this? If the answer to those questions is something along the lines of "No, I don't want this and it's not really part of my life" than I have not committed to the priority, and it's label as such is in jeopardy.

My quiet time has been on the forefront of my commitment thinking. I can't let myself check out on God again, almost as if I'm on summer break from our relationship. That's what happened last summer. It's not as if I wasn't praying and reading my Bible; but worse, I was doing those things without commitment—which made me static. This time around, I'm working on my commitment by first choosing it, then by putting my whole heart into it.

"And you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might" (Deut. 6:5-).